honest answer?
ego. no other reason.
made it my goal to finish havoc 40 on my own terms, did so, proved my skill and thats it.
havoc is just a measure of “i’m capable of doing it as well” not something that provides “fun” given the surrounding factors like partial demotion, trolling, talent-whiners etc.
doubt it.
havoc 1.0, did the same thing, proved my worth, went back to auric maelstrom to solo my stuff despite randoms, not struggle all day because of randoms.
huge difference in fun factor.
one gives me total agency with an “audience” thats “there”
the other makes me dependant on the performance of others, which lets be frank 90% of the time is far from impressive.
since i dont play with premades, havoc 40/random was just a personal “penance”, other than that i neither care for crates, bling, couldnt tell you how many “weekly crates” been opened etc…
ironically even for my channel, havoc content aint worth
, auf gut deutsch “das kuckt kein schwein”
at first i hoped "hey i finished havoc 40 with full health oggy non meta, someones gonna watch, right?
nope, video’s been dead in the water despite showing good performance.
some dude with american pie humor, struggling through malice though, gets the crowd… nah thx, not gonna make a clown out of myself.
even “ordo hereticus” seemed to have stopped posting havoc matches, getting sub 1000 views for all his effort, its a shame.
so why go through all the hassle and waste 2 hours for 1 successful run, when at the same time i can get 4 carries/clutches wrapped up?
so all on all, dont wonder why “no one” plays havoc.
