that’s the saaaame feeling I have when putting in my best and pushing limits.
I never, for the live of me, could understand people celebrating a soccer match, doing little to nothing themselves and proclaimed “we won”
“we what?”
the havoc 40 match I did to prove a point wasn’t won by me, but the zealot that clutched while the 3 of us failed.
got no shame in admitting failure, I took my non-meta whatever build cause it suits my playstyle and I got pretty far with it despite 2 mates down already and stuff zerging in on zealot and my big-target man.
so yeah, i “failed” not “we won”
that’s the mindset so alien to the core of what I define as ambition/skill/determination to make the best “you”.
no matter what’s around or happening.
yes, there’s efficient loadouts and team configuration and yes these win matches.
but how much of these synergies are due to my skill level or merely enabled through the action of others, THATS the difference that makes a win worthless and a loss “skillful” sometimes.
last I checked, emprah be praised, game didnt have a tarkov or battlefield stats page with your win rate open for the whole world (those who care anyways, but lets call it “boasting rights” to settle an argument)
so the only thing “boast-worthy” is the amount I put into this victory, not the bubble, smoke or yellow phone book.
and in that regard, while havoc throws “more” at you its the modifiers that don’t make it necessarily “harder” than an auric maelstrom solo clutch or heck even start to finish solo run.
but the cushion and safety net of the meta-loadouts “ensuring” success where personal skill failed.
and again I’d rather fail 10x and win 1 in a glorious “above and beyond” “kark, i spilled my corpse starch” jaw dropper to show em “how it’s done”

