alright folks, as of 30 minutes ago i officially earned my right to speak at the big table 
the team played great, though you could tell they weren’t particularly fond of having an ogryn around.
still did my best to not kick the bucket and keep pressure off the punies, i mean what else is there right now ?
for what it´s worth it goes to show havoc “can” be beaten without 2/2 zealot psyker, not that it will motivate the majority to pull off their training wheels…
one thing i´d like to add is having achieved this with a “hidden extreme modifier” :
real life
spread
part of the family came down with …checks google for translation… gastrointestinal infection.
basically i cleaned up
from sunday 11:0 pm through the whole night with no sleep and only today getting slowly out of zombie mode.
everyone´s okay though, but gotta remove the vomit ? call an ogryn, always call ogryn…
now that is what i call a hardmode modifier 
could i have done better? maybe, lack of sleep is a btch but honestly, i just wanted to get done with havoc and that damned party finder.
finally “rejected my 4ss”, not that auric maelstrom is gonna scratch that itch any longer but still, big check off that box and proud to have achieved it, with randos no less.
on the upside (despite the team being a major part when it comes to ogryn) i feel more confident updating my loadout video, this time with commentary and my ideas behind it… who knows, maybe someone will find it helpful 
basically this was my current years passion project when it comes to gaming cause
(and i dont want to turn this in a personal sob story)
in the back of my head i know i need to get “treatment” early next year and quite frankly i got no idea how the meds gonna affect my skill/performance.
and having this damocles
dangling above, i wanted to get this over as soon as possible, but still on my own terms (if that makes sense) 
edit:
fkk me i guess. for whatever reason… in all the 800 something videos i uploaded, steam decided to mess up the audio…
since i got my laptop mute when loading up i didnt notice…AAAAH
edit 2:
seems that recent windows update messed up steam recording which in turn can seperate game sound from mic anymore, me updating 2 days ago and not playing since… the beauty of causality